Disappointment

hello, so yeah its been awhile i lived here for the first 5 months it was really really nice i thought i might just found my true happiness, but you know troubles come i just don't really excited about all of this anymore really people overeacted too much, i got my self in trouble and i made one of my fav teacher disappointed and i really don't know what to do :(

BONSOIR

Hello people

so i moved to cairo, yes its like heaven on earth here, the school , the friends, the foods..
i moved to an apartment with my bro cause its like 5 minutes away from my school, and its awesome.
im studying now, i've got to study hard so i can pass the exam, i've been eating all day long fucccckkkk
im going back to mia idk i've been very happy but mia started to haunt me again :(

14 october 2013

hello beautiful people!


i'm sooo sooo happy right now, i couldn't help my self but smiling all day, im doing reaally good in studies, health and life alhamdulilah i'm really really grateful for all this blessing, i lost 4 kg, and IM SO EXITED ABOUT TOMORROW ASDFFGHKSLHAGHAKJSS i know i wouldn't sleep tonight :"D!!

i hope ya'all gonna have a good day, and god bless you


xoxoxoxoxoxoxo,

10 years

hello,

so yesterday i watched 10 years in my break time, it was a really good movie, staring my husband channing tatum and his wife, its about a highschool and college reunion after 10 years, there was a scene that touches me so much , its the scene when oscar isaac sang never had which is extremely good. i am now obsessed with the song btw.
the movie had me thinking what if 10 years from now we'll have a reunion , what have my friends become, what will i become? will i be somebody's wife in that time?, well i hope i'll be a happy and success person in that time :)

*this is the song*



its really good :D

have a nice day peeps,
xoxo,

study your ass out

hello there!

so im so excited i just talked with my dad tru skype cause he's currently back in indonesia, he said that the main reason we did not go to indo last summer was because i failed the first smester, failed in mechanics which i regret it so much cause i wasnt really concentrate in that exam, so now he said if i pass this last year  of highschool without any failure you know so i don't need to take summer exam remedial we can visit indo, so i've promised my self i'll study my ass out. no more procrastination and no more laziness. i need to pass this last year of highschool, i just have a big problem in physics and arabic and geo. because geo is in arabic, i suck at arabic so much you know i know nothing like ugh. i just hope i'll get a good teacher to help me. so now i'm going to call my friend and talk to her. i hope she know about the teacher. and i will need to start reading my last year bio book again. i hope this positive spirit will stay tru my hard time. i have an issues with my self esteem idk almost everyday i feel like a complete shit, friendless and lonely but now, i don't have time for that. i need to be focus on my studies. so have a nice day peeps  :)

xoxoxoxoxo,

dad and his sweet compliments.

hello there,

i recently started to cook again, so far i've baked 3 cakes 3 breads 2 tarts 2 pizza 3 cookies and sugar cookies and one caramel pudding and meringue cookies. i love cooking so much you know, its like you created something beautiful and delicious from the ingredients its like magic lol

and dad, always love my foods. he always say something really sweet and it makes me incredibly happy,one day i baked a red velvet cake, but it turns out  to be not so good, but he ate it anyway and he said it was delicious. how can you not happy. and when i was about to cool down my freshly baked sugar cookies dad come in and took a few cookies, as he took the cookies he stares at me and say, "ain't no body got time for cooling down this cookies" HAHAHA. and the other day i was washing the dishes when he suddenly came to me and asked me what i was doing, and i said i was washing, then he said  "just washing? i thought you were baking or cooking something *sigh*" then he walked away looking disappointed mahahaha so that night i made some cookies for him, and there are so much more when i make him a chili souce it turns out to delicious and he said "smart" and my uncle agreed and he added "that's my daughter" :")

and OH yesterday. i feel like it was the biggest compliment i've ever heard, he said he was hungry so i made him a noodle and meatballs, i made the soup with my own spices, i was not expecting any compliment that time cause its just my casual noodles. but when he ate it he look so surprise and stared at my enthusiast-ly and said "this is really good, the meatballs is really really delicious" mom made the meatballs* ,and he ate it again with the noodles and soup "OHMYGOD, this is really really delicious this makes me happy" he laughed and leaned back and did a cycling move with his legs lol, and when he finished the food he said "you know, shaima is really smart. her brain works really good she know how to balanced the taste perfectly, everything you make always turns out delicious ya."  and i laughed so hard cause i was happy when he added "don't be so happy, it was not a compliment i'm just stating a facts here" oh dad, how can i not love him. since he changed 4 months ago he became really nice funny and lovely just like a real dad, even tho sometimes his annoying side came but it did not last too long , he used to be this hard strict cruel and annoying man. you know i used to hate him like so much. but he changed drastically. i feel sooo blessed and happy. i hope it will last forever :")

xoxo.,

Oh god.

hello,

i recently in a quite horrible moods, that i hate everyone, except my bestfriends ofcourse, idk i became a sensitive ass girl , these days i've been talking with my ex, oh god..how i've missed him so much and he still bring that comfortable feelings when we talk :'(. and next monday the hell privates will start.somebody kill me.
and i ate like a tons of food wtf. guess i deserve some starves for a few days. *sigh*

nice day peeps.