HAPPY (LATE) NEW YEAR!

19:05 pm

i'll make this quick cause im in a rush right now its probably 10 minutes till my private teacher come 

,my new year eve was lame like seriously even my grandpa's funeral was way more something than this. can you imagine? exactly.

life has been A big piece of shit. depression and insecurity eat me alive,everday.

i think i failed at algebra exam, cause you know i'm stupid at math or numbers or subject that contains large numbers and rules.

it is the first time in my life i did not answer a single fucking question with my brain, i was so hopeless that i stared at my question page for 45 minutes and didnt now any single thing. like "dafuqisthisfuckery"

in france exam, i cried lol.

yea life is kind of fucking hard like really. i'd feel happy to jump of a clif and die and be free but i can't cause i'll go instantly to hell.

i lost all my optimis power and spirits. the only happy moment i get is when i talked to denny, my love.

he's the only legit reason i've survived this far, god thankyou for such a blessing :"), and i eat like a pig like every single food in the kitchen,make sense i gain weight but thats okay i'll loose it all on the upcoming holiday inshaAllah*cheers*, and i feel homesick..i miss my besties, afifah nuha dania like seriously so bad :"((((((((, the exam will end on 20th january, hope i'll make it good :""")

but hey, they said its just a bad day, not a bad life, right?? well lets see, i'm still leaning to His side though i know god will never give me something i can't handle, i trust Him

bonne nuit peeps,

xoxo