something about Perfection (remake)

9:11 am

weekend, finally :") its been a hard tiring week, yesterday i stay up late but was too tired to post anything, lol like i even have readers -_-, well.. i supposed to be doing exercises and yoga or pilates cause i've been neglecting my diet and exercises for the past 3-4 days oh i think its been a week....but i can't cause i got this monthly "congratulation you're not pregnant" things -if u know what i mean-
so i woke up early this morning, its freezing cold here i got flu and it did not get any better even after a bunch of influenza medicine. and,.. i feel kind of blue, i miss him so much i know he is busy cause of his midterm exam, and i completely understand he don't have time for me, and its okay i just want the best for him and want him to be focused on the exam and hope he'll get a highscore,.
its like, i can't get mad too long with him, i just can't be angry or be egoistic or selfish , i'll always swallow my pride, cause he is the best thing that has ever happened in my life and i will do everything to keep him, with all i believe in i can surely say i do love him that much.
but once again i said.. ldr sucks, misscomunication and lost contact.. and pain and bad day make it hard to stay strong or to fight for things i believe in. it sound complicated and nonsense i know -_- i just feel a bit lost today and anxious without any specific reason, he greeted me, and said he misses me, but he found out that he recently make me sad...i feel kind of bad..but i did feel sad these day.. its not always rainbow and butterflies you know, even after the hurricane there will be a sunny day and a rainbow, but the hurricane phases is one of hell hard moment in life.
i just hope and wish i can visit indonesia as soon as possible so i can meet him its been too long and times gettiing harder ;'(

okay, i was wrong about doutzen and barbara, cause when it comes to Barbara Palvin , not even The Doutzen Kroes could beat her perfection.
she's like....................oh my god. can you see a flaw in her face or body or smile? she is fucking flawless..she is like photosoped or something. she is really really beautiful and perfect that when you look at her it seems  she's not real, she's like a masterpiece,.and elephant could shit on her face and she will still look amazing.. god, barbara can i be you already :'((((((((

its her.
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perfect.

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and this is doutzen kroes, my other favorite model, she is down to earth and flawless, she is mother but you will not see any flaws in her body, like.god, doutzen, can u stop being perf.ect.